We have officially hit the count down. I'm down to five weeks and can't believe I will have three babies under 5 in my home before you know it. I am so stinkin' anxious to have this baby. I am officially dying to know who he or she is! I don't know that my tummy can physically get any larger with out popping. And these little guys above are so ready to meet their brother or sister.
Faith and trust have been the lessons that I have learned this pregnancy. With Sass, I learned a lot about faith and trust do to my blood clot and the chance of her not making it for so long. Also, when your are flat on your back for weeks on end, God has time to teach you a lot! But I also had earthly comfort in having a million dr's visits and ultrasounds through out her pregnancy. So while I had to trust God like I never did before, He sent me constant reassurance through these visits.
This pregnancy has been fairly uneventful. Sure I puked on a regular basis for the first 20 some odd weeks, I have horrible heartburn now and am fairly uncomfortable in the dead heat of summer here in the hot south, but those are normal pregnancy discomforts. I don't see my OB weekly (well, I'm starting to, but again, under normal circumstances). I haven't rushed to the Women's Center numerous times thinking for sure I finally lost the baby. No hospital admittances. It's been fairly easy, yet I have had to trust more than ever because the earthly comforts of extra dr. attention isn't there.
Over the past year I know of/ am friends with three people who have lost babies at term for no reason. This is a HUGE fear for me. Another lost their two year old. Totally out of their control, everything was fine and then it wasn't. WOW. God if I could ask you to explain something to me, that would be high up on the list.
I am not a good scripture memorizer. It's not my gift, but song sticks with me. I can hear a praise song once or twice and then be in a situation at a totally different time and verses from a song will flood me. I figure if the song is full of scripture than surely that's a close second best to memorizing the actual scripture. I actually want to go get a c.d. my friend
Alison told me about called
Songs for Saplings, because I can already see that Sass learns through music like I do, so instead of her memorizing the wheels on the bus, why not have her singing truth!
The Lord has sent me songs as comfort this time. Casting Crown's Praise You in this Storm is one I find myself singing often. The chorus is Psalm 121:1,2:
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I also find myself singing a good ole praise song we sang in college ministry all the time:
My Life is in You LordMy Strength is in You LordMy Hope Is in You LordIt's in You, It's in YouSo 5 more weeks of trusting and hoping and having faith until our newest little one has arrived and then there will be three. And who am I kidding..... that's when trust and faith will have to kick in like never before.
